[08 Jan 2010|10:39am] abraxa You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light.- Whitman Even fire is gradual, spontaneous and ravenous as it seems. Some things take so long to burn, burning being a state we work up to, gradually, choosing carefully our kindling for weight, for size and for dryness. Burning is not fast, nor easy, little ones, you must work hard to burn. I'm reading Whitman in the mornings, the way I used to read my Bible in the mornings when I was religious. It's powerful. I come away each time with something to think about through the day, something like there will never be any more perfection than there is now and I resist anything better than my own diversity and the most life-changing yet, Why should I pray? Why should I venerate and be ceremonious? Having pried through the strata, analyzed to a hair, counselled with doctors, and calculated close, I find no sweeter fat than stick to my own bones. Seriously. You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light. We all want the simple, the feather-weight, the bright and shining. But we're not accustomed to it when it comes. We've been mining. We've been crawling through the deep dark tunnels that sometimes we must in order to connect to our desires. We've been walking on our knees through the mud toward our own personal mecca, whatever and wherever that is. We've been eating fruit from trees and scavenging bread. And then: light? Light? We're curious, but we're fearful. We don't know how to be happy. But it is our work, our most true and original occupation. We must learn how to be happy, to live in the light, to accept the light when it comes. When we can do that, live in the light, not by containing the light but living in it and shining it forward and embodying it, we will never again be below ground, never again try to match candle to flame in the dark pits where fear lives. + +

public service announcement [08 Jan 2010|09:46am] i_aim_to_please not to sound like an infomercial, but i've always had problem skin. even when my face isn't having "break outs," it's always had this gross, bumpy texture to it. i always thought i had kind of oily skin, so i always neglected to moisturize it but i started using some vitamin e lotion on my face a few days ago and it's made all the difference in the world. my face is smooth for the first time ever. i guess maybe the bumps were just dry bumps.. i get those on my arms sometimes if i don't wear lotion. and my mom never showed me how to put on make up and i had to learn about all the girly stuff on my own so i guess i wanted to put this out there for anyone that doesn't have acne but has little face bumps in case their textured skin is from the same thing as mine. so. at the risk of sounding like a complete lame ass, i wanted to share. <3 + +

* [07 Jan 2010|07:00pm] tamishka Cute boys.

[06 Jan 2010|08:30pm] tamishka PASTA, starring the lovely Gong Hyo Jin and Lee Sun Gyun, whom I find oddly attractive --- incredibly so! I really want to watch this. Perfect cast and perfect theme song too, which I've had on repeat since it's been released. You can listen to it here. I love Kyuhyun's voice --- love, love, love. Speaking of pasta, above is a photo of an Italian restaurant in Seoul (more precisely: Samcheong-dong), where we had dinner one evening. We were really craving Western food! Such a cute restaurant, unfortunately I don't remember what it's called. + +

Treeless Mountain, [06 Jan 2010|05:42pm] tamishka

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